Tuesday, February 15, 2011

New Year, New Me

Wow. I suck at blogging. Like reallllly bad suck at blogging.
In a lot of ways blogging is just like dieting, and working out.
It takes 50 times to make a habit, and one to break it.

Not only have I not been blogging, but little by little I've gotten reaaaaaalllly lazy.
I hadnt been to the gym in like 3 weeks, and since 2011 started Ive gained like 10 pounds back. Taking the total of 53 i had lost back down to only losing 43. Which is totally unacceptable.

Today was my first day back at the gym in 3 weeks like i said, and it kicked my butt, but i honestly dont think ive ever pushed myself as hard as i did today.

I refuse to keep this my reality.

2011 will be my year.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

It's the most wonderful time of the year. =]

Holy Almost December.
I have no idea where the time has went.

I have spent so much time working the last two months i haven't had much time for anything else.
I haven't gained any of my weight back, but i haven't lost much more, about 42 pounds down all together.
Ive only been going to the gym once or twice a week which is not okay, but when you work 6am to about 7 pm, doesn't leave much time for the gym.
Thankfully, i should be getting back on a normal schedule so i can get my butt back in gear.

Thanksgiving came and went so fast. I worked thanksgiving day, i was sick, and my dad was in the hospital, so by the time i got to my aunts house for dinner, i was to sick and exhausted to eat anything! Sad cause i looove thanksgiving meals, happy cause those mashed taters and pumpkin pie are not going to be sitting on my waist and thighs this year!

I'm pretty excited for Christmas this year! I wont be working, so I'll get to spend the whole day with my family. We drew names for our family Christmas and for the third year in a row i got my grandpas name. He is thee hardest person in the family to shop for. Any ideas?
I think tonight I'm going to go out and get a Christmas tree and set it up! I'm thinking I'm going to make it an Ohio state themed tree, preeetttyyy excited!

Happy Holidays!

Thursday, October 7, 2010


Life's little simple pleasures are wayy too often overlooked i think. today I've tried to stop and take in the little things that just make me smile.
By even acknowledging them i have found that even on a day where i feel like crap, I've had a wonderful morning.
I decided to make a list of some of my most treasured simple pleasures.
1. Singing in the shower, loudly.
2. An uncluttered room.
3. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends
4. Dancing like you’re crazy.
5. Watching the sunrise.
6. Taking a long, relaxing shower.
7. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment
8. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep
9. Making the Yellow Light
10. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had
11. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout
12. Making Someone Smile
13. Watching the ocean
14. Crying because you're so happy
15. A brand new pair of socks.
16. Laughing so hard until you cry.
17. Checking something off your to-do list.
18. Finding something you were planning to buy, on sale
19. The smell of fall.
20. That childhood movie that you've had for years and can recite every line
21. Thunderstorms
22. A fresh snow
23. Swinging on a swing
24. A good hair day.
25. Your dog excitedly greeting you after a long day of work.
26. Touching the tiny fingers and toes of a newborn baby.
27. Reading a good book.
28. A nature hike.
29. Laying back and looking up at clouds.
30. Walking barefoot in grass.

I encourage you to stop and "smell the roses".

Also, today Ive been reading up on yoga.. i like the idea of it, but id wait till i was much smaller to try to start it. No one wants to see all this doing the Downward Facing Dog, Garland Pose or the Standing Straddle Forward Bend. Maybe I'll get a video or something and try it at home when I'm alone? haha.
Right now i just feel like i need to simplify my life. I'm making all these awesome life changing decisions, deciding to get real about losing weight, going back to school, gaining more maturity about becoming fiscally responsible, starting to love myself, and deciding to get over a failed relationship and get on with my life knowing I'll find love again. All this awesome self awareness, and positive changes and i still feel as if there is so much clutter to my life. I hate to be so radical but i think I'm just going to start chucking things, a spring cleaning if you will.
Last but not least. I have decided when i reach my goal weight what i will reward myself with. (is it sad I'm already thinking about this?) Obviously a new wardrobe will be accumulated all along, but what i really really want to do is take ballroom dancing lessons. I am in love with the Show Dancing with the stars and Mark Ballas, sooo i would loooove to be able to learn how to dance like that. yayy!

Lauren. =]

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Speak Now. =]

First off, thanks for the support. It means so much to me. You really have no idea.

This week has been insane, and i finally feel like i can take a breath. Unfortunately I'm sick so my day off will be spent being lazy...after my workout.

I went to my gym for the first time yesterday, and it was so nice to be able to work out on actual equipment instead of just going down my road. I'm excited to start going to the zumba classes they have. It looks like a lot of fun. Also im realizing how much music can help you get pumped for and during a work out. So any music suggestions would be awesome, well suggestions for anything would be awesome!!  =]

They gave me my meal plan, and i guess I'll be on this until i stop losing and then they switch you over to something else. This is how it goes.
Breakfast Day 1&3
Cereal (list to choose from)
1c. skim milk or non-fat yogurt
1 Fruit
Breakfast Day 2&4
Protein(egg, egg white omelet, egg beaters)(what is egg beaters?)
2 slices high fiber/low cal bread
1 Fruit
4 oz. of meat ( I'm doing no red meat at all)
2 slices of high fib/low cal bread or 1/2 pita bread or 1 fat-free tortilla
1/2c. fat-free cottage cheese or non-fat yogurt or 1oz fat-free cheese slice
Unlimited Veggies
4oz. meat
1 medium baked potato or 1/2c. rice (no sweet potato =[    )
1 Fruit
Unlimited Veggies
and I'm supposed to have a afternoon and evening snack I'll prob just eat a raw veggie or something for that
so pretty much I'm going to turn into a vegetable =]
I have to count my fat grams on everything i eat.  It really isn't to far off of what Ive been eating, i don't usually eat as much in a meal as they are having me eat, but it'll work.
since my last blog Ive lost an additional 5-6 lbs.
I'm starting to notice it around my waist, cause my belt needs tightened a little more ha ha!!
woot woot.
As for me and this Wednesday morning, I'm off to work out and back home to get over this cold.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Blogging? Heck Yes!

Hi. My name is Lauren and I'm 21 years old. I am severely overweight. It has been an ongoing battle ever since i can remember. I've talked about losing weight forever, and the talk is easy. You can say anything you want, but actually doing it, making it a reality is something Ive never been able to do, until now.
Since setting my goals, and becoming determined to get healthy i have lost a grand total of 25 pounds. Most people would be proud of that. I'm not really. I'm embarrassed i let myself get like this, and i refuse to stop until i get to where i need to be.
My support system for weight loss, isn't exactly what you would call large. My family, sure of course they want whats best for me, but managing their weight isn't exactly a priority. My biggest supporter, and my biggest inspiration comes from my best friend Rachael. She has struggled with her weight throughout most of her life and shes lost weight, how much I'm not sure, but a lot, and she looks great.
I don't want to diet. I want to change my whole lifestyle, and for me that is what this blog is about. I doubt people will read it, and that's fine with me. This is more for me than anything. Its somewhere i can come back on my bad days and see that Ive had good days, and that i can do anything, as long as I'm serious and try. Applying it and sticking with it are going to be tough but for once i really feel like i can do this, i feel excited about the future and getting healthy.
This is my life, my struggles, my accomplishments, everything.

this is my reality. but thank god, not for that much longer.

Lauren =]